My Magic Wand...

When you feel that everything in the world is going against you, no amount of music, chicken or chocolate can make you feel better. Its actually a very silly notion and a sillier thing to say that "nothing's going right in life!!", and i know that. But still, we get that feeling of being this insignificant thing, whom even the creator has forgotten. If such a feeling has not occured to you, then you're probably one of the lucky few... But I think it occurs to all of us. Most of us at least.

Probably one of those days for me... When I am finding it difficult to see and realize how beautiful my life actually is. How generous god has been with me in giving me sight to see the splendidness of this world, of my family and of my friends. Cant see it! Just cant..no matter how hard I try. Ever been there???

"I hate life and hate everyone around me!" my heart shouts it out! And then its echo lingers on for a long while... Actually I feel deeply hurt. And its numbing my senses, my capacity to think straight to find a solution to this pain.

(Now comes the best part...)

But then there was an enlightment. Lying on my bed, I worked out the perfect means to ease my situation. And mind you, this time it was not mindless gobbling of chocolate bars or the ever nutritiuos Complan! But some rather subtle mindgames between you and youself, where in, if you win, all pain and anguish, will look smaller and smaller... How u may ask! Please do!

Before I divulge the details of this magic wand trick to come out of any mental misery you're in, there is a Disclaimer and also a Statutory Warning!!!

Disclaimer - Works only for people who believe that they are cheats, deceitful scoundrels and hypocrites of some degree. If you've lived a life of pious fu**ing sanctity till now, then please leave this page.

Statutory Warning - Adminstering this magic wand remedy on yourself might cause some mental, emotional or physical side effect for which this site or its owner (me) do not take any responsibilty।


So here goes... When you feel down and out about something. Feel ignored. Feel "a person" is hurting you by doing something or by just not doing anything at all. Close your eyes, and go back in time. Just try and count, to how many people in life have you done something similar. Just count... Now pick one of them and start recollecting instances. Instances where you have used someone; exploited someone's feelings; turned down an honest request; ignored to acknowledge someone's existence when all he/she wanted was a smile from you; hurt someone just because you felt you could, just because you felt powerful doing it; revelled in the attention you got without once bothering to return some; abused and laughed at someone's true feelings; made someone cry and were too busy to say sorry; plainly ignored 10 missed calls and 5 messages to later say that you were with your friends... Try, try hard to feel what probably would have gone through that person's heart. How cursed and loathed you probably ended up being in his/her mind by the end of it all... This is not one of those idiotic "Chicken Soup for the ****" articles, where at the end I am going to ask you to call that person up and say sorry as its never too late... Naa..this is real life and things are a shade more complicated than that. You have wronged somebody in the past. Yes, you have done it and it can't be undone. No matter what you do. While its best to forget the past, at times like these, it might just be the right thing to think about. And realize, you have caused enough pain to others to be feeling like this today...

When you reach this stage, you're probably feeling a lot better thinking that your pain is nothing in front of what you have caused to someone else.

But if you end up feeling worse, at the end of it all... What can I say? You probably deserve it.